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I wasn't asking to be together again. I was telling you exactly how I am feeling. We have both lost a lot of self confidence because of our past relationship. I kills me even to this day that I never really felt like I was good enough for you, do you know that? Even in the beginning I never really knew where I stood with you.
Love like I felt for you comes maybe once a life time, and I have been blessed to feel it twice in mine. It has taken me twelve years to get over my first love, and I do not see my feelings for you disappearing anytime soon. Again, I think that right from the start I have been asking for something from you you have never really been willing to give. You wanted to and you tried, but the time and maybe the person was not right for you. I think it could have been, if we could have let it happen.For whatever reasons that were, are and may always will be, we are not and maybe never will be together.
It's the sound of your voice when you called me last, and I could hear you crying just at the end. The sound of you crying, and me knowing that I may never be lucky enough to hear that, to know you well enough to be able to share that moment when we are vulnerable together, as lovers, friends or whatever, that is the loss I feel. It did not disappear the day you left, it has stayed and is still a part of me. The choices we make take us away and bring us together.
Just know that however much distance you put between you and I in your heart, nothing can ever change what it was that made us so crazy for each other. We made each other feel alive, and as best we could, we loved each other too. Imagine what it could have been like if we both could have let it carry us away.
When the time is right we will run into each other, but until life does it's thing and steers us into each others path, I think I would like to be at peace and for me that means without contact. Never have I had to ask that of someone. Be safe in your journies, be free to love, be free to be able to be honest with yourself, and most of all be wild and crazy!!!!
I love you, Darvin.
Love like I felt for you comes maybe once a life time, and I have been blessed to feel it twice in mine. It has taken me twelve years to get over my first love, and I do not see my feelings for you disappearing anytime soon. Again, I think that right from the start I have been asking for something from you you have never really been willing to give. You wanted to and you tried, but the time and maybe the person was not right for you. I think it could have been, if we could have let it happen.For whatever reasons that were, are and may always will be, we are not and maybe never will be together.
It's the sound of your voice when you called me last, and I could hear you crying just at the end. The sound of you crying, and me knowing that I may never be lucky enough to hear that, to know you well enough to be able to share that moment when we are vulnerable together, as lovers, friends or whatever, that is the loss I feel. It did not disappear the day you left, it has stayed and is still a part of me. The choices we make take us away and bring us together.
Just know that however much distance you put between you and I in your heart, nothing can ever change what it was that made us so crazy for each other. We made each other feel alive, and as best we could, we loved each other too. Imagine what it could have been like if we both could have let it carry us away.
When the time is right we will run into each other, but until life does it's thing and steers us into each others path, I think I would like to be at peace and for me that means without contact. Never have I had to ask that of someone. Be safe in your journies, be free to love, be free to be able to be honest with yourself, and most of all be wild and crazy!!!!
I love you, Darvin.
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